End of a fantasy

The mere thought of that would have
sent shivers through my spine before.
But now, I am no longer a stakeholder
The thought of losing you would have
deprived me of sleep for many days
But as of now, I am a mere outsider

I cant say I don’t have pain, but I am
proud that I made a thoughtful choice
We were afraid of changing ourselves
So time had to change the equation
I could have forgiven you as He did
But I am neither He nor a saint.

To be frank my mind is tranquil now
And I sleep peacefully than ever before
I realise that we were never together
And when you were never mine why
the hell should I crib, that I lost you.
There ends a fantasy, nothing more.

Sky is dark, stars are bright but still
a mystic melancholy prevails over me.