End of a fantasy
The mere thought of that would have
sent shivers through my spine before.
But now, I am no longer a stakeholder
The thought of losing you would have
deprived me of sleep for many days
But as of now, I am a mere outsider
I cant say I don’t have pain, but I am
proud that I made a thoughtful choice
We were afraid of changing ourselves
So time had to change the equation
I could have forgiven you as He did
But I am neither He nor a saint.
To be frank my mind is tranquil now
And I sleep peacefully than ever before
I realise that we were never together
And when you were never mine why
the hell should I crib, that I lost you.
There ends a fantasy, nothing more.
Sky is dark, stars are bright but still
a mystic melancholy prevails over me.
sent shivers through my spine before.
But now, I am no longer a stakeholder
The thought of losing you would have
deprived me of sleep for many days
But as of now, I am a mere outsider
I cant say I don’t have pain, but I am
proud that I made a thoughtful choice
We were afraid of changing ourselves
So time had to change the equation
I could have forgiven you as He did
But I am neither He nor a saint.
To be frank my mind is tranquil now
And I sleep peacefully than ever before
I realise that we were never together
And when you were never mine why
the hell should I crib, that I lost you.
There ends a fantasy, nothing more.
Sky is dark, stars are bright but still
a mystic melancholy prevails over me.
posted by neermathalam at 8:27 AM
21 Comments:
:-)
fantasies end to be born again...I can only say...keep going!
Nice fantasies...and dreams..nice writings
thats kinda real heart rending...
anywayz..
....a very merry xmas and an extremely wonderful new year to u! do hv a blast!
:)
Hey,
How are you doing man? As before I happened to land up in this page from some other Mallu Blog. The perils(?) of indolent afternoons in an office where the main job is to make others think one is busy...Well. Do you read English books? Which kind of books do you like..English? Malayalam? Have heard of Tagor's wrtitng in English and the comments of some celebrated western writers on that?
What is Infactuation?
Keep writing...
Read man..read more and more and hone your skills.
Good Luck.
beautiful - is it because i share the same feelings of yours at present state of my life.
i just noticed you nick named my page as "the poet" i am moved and touched by it but just a feel a fear feel. Am I ? Am i really ? thanks man. by the way - i am going to redo this poem with your permission in my own words. You penned exactly what i want. the theme and the words are exactly the way what i would have wished to do. I want to re do this poem . stored in my folder will try doing - certainly is copying but will make it in such a way it is not. with your permission
@how do we know...
:) :) 2 smiles back
@kalyan...
true...(i wonder why do everyone put three dots...no clue whatsover...);)
@raghu ram prasad
thanks dear
@veluvetta...
it was...and thanks a lot for the wishes...Wish you back the same..no exactly the double as you are two now...;)
@prophet of frivolity...
I am doing great hope you are also fine...
i love printed paper...i read just anything...from the wrapping papers. to bertrad russel..or as a matter of fact whatever..that come into my hand...
not a good habit, i know..But cant help it..many books that I started are left unfinished as the many paintings which i started and left just because i was lazy.
only thing that i read of tagore was when i was in my highschool classes...a poem and a shortstory kaboolhiwalah...there ends my knowledge..btb i love silvia plath and robert frost...
and as the only crtic i have can you be please be more specific i would love that.....(and well these are just my thoughts but when i press the publish button and someone like you treat it is a piece of writting and pen an elaborate comment i feel honoured...)
@known stranger...
hmmm...:(..my wishes...
u r the real poet...man...ur words are too poetic..has got a fluidity...when you put some thing in net it is like an arrow left from the bow...u can do it...
only thing..put some good effort and make it a poem...i am sure it is in safe hands...:)..i would love to read your remix...
Really nice one...Very touching!
Good writing...
All da best
Neetha.
@neetha
Thank you...nice 2 hear that u like it...
and welcome 2 ma lighthouse...
this poem of yours is the source of idea to pen my latest. here and there some change did with your words.
aioo aioo.. that poem is another inspiration and another form of your end of fantasy.
actually the to live afloat for ever is the first one written after reading yours - but didnt want to post it as it is too much of pain that i knew people will illusioned that pain is mine.. infact it did happned. En charactera purinchuka matengranga enna panna.. i am waiting for you to write one more so i can get another inspiration. you actually wrote in a way that you dont bother for the break up - i wrote the other way that even if you moved away i will be in your thoughts... chuma oru yetiku poti than enna sollra neer mathallanatharay ?
life goes on....and every morning u wake u with a heavy heart...
"I realise that we were never together
And when you were never mine why
the hell should I crib, that I lost you.
There ends a fantasy, nothing more."
if only twas so easy to deal wth the end of 'fantasies'...
lovely poem :)
hey !
dont u update here ?????
yeah .... no man/woman is ever ours .. we live in a delusion when we call someone ours ... no matter how much of a social animal we are, we go back to being self entities ... am i making sense here ????
ya ....
@known...
pootiya..ungalodeya....:P never..
and well...i am touched to understand that my emotions has become a fodder for your creation...
@Deepa
you always make sense...even at time when i differ in opinion with you...but this time you are bang on..synergising thoughts...:)..regarding updates..
I will post soon is all that i can say..lethargy...;)
@vinay..
Time is great healer..and other one is what grounds did you part..
as long as pangs of guilt doesnt haunt you..you will have a sound sleep and you look forward to the mornings...Welcome to my lighthouse..
@vrinda
welcome to my lighthouse...thanks a lot...:)
nice one:)
Still this poem is the best inspiration to me to write to my satisfcation. i will keep looking for your emotions again
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