Reflections....images and revelations
What prevented me from penning down anything for long ? Lethargy,lack of topic, lack of love
or plain indifference to the happenings around me..I dont know.
One the most valuable relationship of mine has off late become a troubled one.And the blame is completely on me. I can't treat him as lord and my best friend the same time. I can't wear an honor that I dont deserve.It is so painful to pray to him as others do 'Krishanaguruvayurappa nalla buddi thonikane' rather than the usual just a 'kanna' vili.It is so impersonal but you made me chose the former.And yes it is your will that prevails.
But I would one day retrive my treasured relationship as that of a best friend with you when I think I deserve it back. Because if I was proud of something that was it.
It is impossible to keep two distinct relationships with any person.You can't be a friend and a lover the sametime, you can't be a father and a lender the sametime.If you are then you are either cheating or simply doing justice to none.I have been doing that for long with him.And I was just juggling those roles opportunistically. Enough is enough... May be I should grow mature enough to come out of Calvin and Hobbes thing.Long winding road indeed !!!
I think the unsent messages in your draft folder are the exact representations of what you think as you are not afraid of other person's judgement.
And with God there is no unsent messages it is all clear as a crystal.I dont want to take refuge in religious rituals.But I understand I can't help from taking refuge in you because I need to derive strength from within..And that is you...who can help me....!!!
As many of my readers (do I have a readership..kidding !!!) know my true identity and I am not as anonymous as before..why the hell should i crib too personal(and crazy for many) thing like this here...Just because this is my den...!!! I am not here to share the fundas or post anything useful to the readers..If it happens it is just a coincidence.What else ?.And each of my sentence is nothing but a reminder to myself rather than anything else.
Follow your heart
It is not what you do now
that would decide your future.
Every single forward step
have to carry your past baggage.
But yet inaction is no remedy
Accept the fact the race is unfair
But still you can beat the pack
Starting late doesn’t mean ending last.
As they say you can’t fake it
Accept your faults and sins
But you can’t afford to hate thyself
You are your last and only refuge.
Give a chase to catch the dreams
Run as fast as if life or death
Results do matter but don’t lose
Your heart as you needs it forever.
Does this sound like a poem.Silly me..On a second read it sounds just like a slogan..
Whatever !! That is all what i want to convince myself.
And yet I have not grown enough old to part with my 'neermathalam' tag.....It is so sexy as BVN rightly said...
Rathish K
or plain indifference to the happenings around me..I dont know.
One the most valuable relationship of mine has off late become a troubled one.And the blame is completely on me. I can't treat him as lord and my best friend the same time. I can't wear an honor that I dont deserve.It is so painful to pray to him as others do 'Krishanaguruvayurappa nalla buddi thonikane' rather than the usual just a 'kanna' vili.It is so impersonal but you made me chose the former.And yes it is your will that prevails.
But I would one day retrive my treasured relationship as that of a best friend with you when I think I deserve it back. Because if I was proud of something that was it.
It is impossible to keep two distinct relationships with any person.You can't be a friend and a lover the sametime, you can't be a father and a lender the sametime.If you are then you are either cheating or simply doing justice to none.I have been doing that for long with him.And I was just juggling those roles opportunistically. Enough is enough... May be I should grow mature enough to come out of Calvin and Hobbes thing.Long winding road indeed !!!
I think the unsent messages in your draft folder are the exact representations of what you think as you are not afraid of other person's judgement.
And with God there is no unsent messages it is all clear as a crystal.I dont want to take refuge in religious rituals.But I understand I can't help from taking refuge in you because I need to derive strength from within..And that is you...who can help me....!!!
As many of my readers (do I have a readership..kidding !!!) know my true identity and I am not as anonymous as before..why the hell should i crib too personal(and crazy for many) thing like this here...Just because this is my den...!!! I am not here to share the fundas or post anything useful to the readers..If it happens it is just a coincidence.What else ?.And each of my sentence is nothing but a reminder to myself rather than anything else.
Follow your heart
It is not what you do now
that would decide your future.
Every single forward step
have to carry your past baggage.
But yet inaction is no remedy
Accept the fact the race is unfair
But still you can beat the pack
Starting late doesn’t mean ending last.
As they say you can’t fake it
Accept your faults and sins
But you can’t afford to hate thyself
You are your last and only refuge.
Give a chase to catch the dreams
Run as fast as if life or death
Results do matter but don’t lose
Your heart as you needs it forever.
Does this sound like a poem.Silly me..On a second read it sounds just like a slogan..
Whatever !! That is all what i want to convince myself.
And yet I have not grown enough old to part with my 'neermathalam' tag.....It is so sexy as BVN rightly said...
Rathish K
posted by neermathalam at 6:59 AM
1 Comments:
Being true to yourself- sometimes very easy, sometimes hard, but good advice. I feel that to be truly happy, you must be proud of who you are. A lot of truth in your poem.
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